Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in pixiedust682's LiveJournal:

Thursday, September 21st, 2006
5:21 pm	All I Can Do is Close My Eyes... Cross My Heart and Hope to Die... Just sitting here on the computer looking for a job. Being unemployed sucks and it's thoroughly frustrating to look and look and look for a job, but wind up coming home empty handed. I just want this ordeal to be over so I can move on with the next step of my life... a family. Jack and I have become officially serious in our relationship and I feel like the only next step we can take (after getting our finances and employment stable) is having a family. Man, I never thought I'd be able to love someone so much again. Before him, I was put down and tossed aside like a cigarette that had it's final pull and is of no more use... to just be tossed on the side of the road to finish burning out and eventually fading away. But I'm so glad I found him... he's picked me up and dusted me off... making me feel new again and worth something. Okay... enough of the mushiness. All I'm saying is that I have finally found the one and his name is JACK! ^.^ ... I hope I don't fuck it up... O_o Besides that, I finished school, but am going back in a year to get my master's in Marine Mammal Rehabilitation: most likely in Florida... or some sort of Marine related bio! Wish me luck... I'll need all I can get. Current Mood: loved Current Music: Motion City Soundtrack - "Make Out Kids" (Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
8:31 am	Wow.... All these Years... Well, I checked the date and I see it's the 16th... only 3 more days 'til I graduate. A feeling of anxiousness and joy has overcome me. Last night I was perusing through my textbooks and old notes that I've accumulated over the 6 years I've been in school. I started to dump old notes and things and tears welled up in my eyes. I realized that I've worked my ass off those years studying and writing assignments and trying to catch up on my requirements. I made it. I really did it. It took me longer than it should, but I finished. All that hassle, aggravation, and stressing out to the point of several nervous breakdowns... it has finally paid off. I feel relieved and at the same time a new stress is appearing: Finding a full time job WITH benefits. I have faith in myself though... in no time I'll be working with the animals that I studied about in school: Mantees, dolphins, and whales... OH MY! ^.^ P.S.~ Party this weekend! ^.^ Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: My Chemical Romance - 'Helena' (Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)
Monday, November 14th, 2005
1:34 pm	How did I die? X.x Hmmm.... You commited suicide. I don't know why but the world was just getting to be to much for you. You felt as if even the people that sincerly wanted to help you were only making things worse. But now you're back because you have a mission to fufill that you never got to finish before. So don't give up, you're here for a reason that you don't know about yet. How did you die in your past life? (for everyone) brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: artistic Current Music: Jack's Mannequin (Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)
Saturday, September 24th, 2005
5:06 am	Well, today... oh today... it was hectic. Had an Evolution exam this morning... which I am so pissed off at because te bulk of what I studied WAS NOT on the friggin' test! Grrrrr! Okay, after that I had to run to my car and eat and get prepared to go to Flax pond, which is a salt marsh, for my ecology lab. Got my boots, thinking they would help, but when we when we got stuck out there during high tide and we had to wade through thigh deep water that had come in... now I am one of the tallest people in our group of 18, so if it was thigh deep for me... imagine for the rest of them... wading through a salt marsh that is thigh deep at the beginning of high tide, smells like sulfur, and whenever you step you risk losing a shoe in the muck. Yet, I had a lot of fun. Now, cut to about 6 hrs later(60 min in traffic), I get home and I take a shower, eat and get online... then I called Jack. He answered and I spoke. I had a slight headache (damn MSG) and I just wanted to talk to him... but he had Jimmie over and they were playing video games and he basically told me he'd call me back after Jimmie and the video games were over... that upset... I never quite undertood the importance of guys and their video games. So I sounded really upset when I got off the phone because I was. So after that I just fell asleep... and I woke up now. I'm not upset anymore and I don't have a headache anymore, which is good. I realized it was a trivial thing to be annoyed at and I care about him so much, so I'm willing to get over it. After all, I'd probably do the same thing if I had a guest over my house too. Well, I think I'm gonna make myself breakfas'! Hopefully I'll talk to Jack today. (Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)
Thursday, October 7th, 2004
11:27 pm	What... you're sick... Nah!... Okay... Today was a really bleh kinda day... ya know the kind of day that you would rather stick your head in the ground than spend another minute in a class in which the profesor seems like he is talking slowly and like forever and you can actually see each word come out of his mouth then drip off his lip into a puddle of word smoosh on the floor by the blackboard. Man I wish he slipped on that... OK, that was a wonderful run on sentence... I'm in class and I had to ask the profesor to leave early and he asked me why. 'I'm feeling under the weather...' I stated as the mucus was running from my nose and my eyes appearing to look like cream puff pastries. 'How are you sick?' I get asked as my profesor raises a brow. 'You don't see my leaky nose, puffy,red eyes or the fact that I barely have a voice to speak to you right now?' I asked, already annoyed, 'I'm sick... can I leave early?' 'What you're sick You look fine?' my profesor said sarcastically. Why do people have the need to test my patience on a regular basis. I didn't have time for this... I just got up and left. Don't know why i didn't do that in the first place... guess it's cause I like the class and have respect... well had respect for the profesor. Hopefully, he was just in a bad mood today and i won't have to deal with that crap again. So I went on the train home... little did I know that I would be confronted by an ugly, creepy, old mam who reeked of two day old bratwurst and spoiled milk. He sat next to me the entire ride home... the whole 2 hours. Thank someone that my nose was stuffy for most of the ride. He also decided to cough on me a couple of times, cause of course my forehead has the words: 'Place germs here and anywhere else on the surface of this body' I got off that train as soon as I was able to... and I actually got home ok. That's when I just crashed on my bed and fell asleep. Until now... but I'm getting a bit tired so I'm heading out. Tomorrow's gonna be fun... I hope... um... designated driving is DA COOLEST! *sighs* Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Senses Fail - 'Senses Fail' (2 Of My Last Tries | Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)
Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
2:50 pm	Well Well Well.... Look what we've got here... Looks like I have been away from this for awhile. Things have been very very hectic... Hmmm... so much has happened. Another semester has come and gone. Summer has come and gone. It disappeared so quickly... I never thought it would end this fast. *shrugs* Oh well... I'm back in school now, Marine Biology and all that good stuff. My friends are awesome. Reg and DiDi went back to New Paltz... Danielle is officially in the 'Real World' as an auditer... *sighs* Laura and Matt are going to school in the city and I'm out here in Stony Brook commuting M-F... *shrugs* not that bad though, so I can't complain. I'm tired though. Been trying to keep up with all my work and not straggle behind... I honestly thought it wouldn't be this hard... *sighs* I can't wait to get out of school. *nods* Yup... swimming with the manatees and rescuing them. Ahhh... soo cute, but not very smart. I dunno where I'm going to go once I graduate... not grad school though, I think I'm going to take a break from school and just work for awhile... then go back and get my master's. Anyway, it'll be worth it. Hmmm... let's see... nothing much going on now... but OH OH OH!!!! ROAD TEST FRIDAY! I'm totally nervous, but hopefully I won't f*ck up. *sighs* Life is full of tests... tests that don't mean anything... SATs, GREs, Road tests.... what if you are having a bad day... you mean to tell me I could be an excellent driver or have a good amount of knowledge on my major, but because I do poorly on one of these tests cause I'm having a bad day... it determines my future?! What a load of crock. Well I think I'm done ranting about that... hmmmm... nothing left right now to say... *shrugs* Oh well... Later tater! Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: "On My Way" - Off By One (1 Of My Last Tri | Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
10:19 am	Lara's 21st.... WOOT! So here I am living to tell the tale of Laura's 21st b-day... I survived! So it started out with me, Reg, and Diana coming down for the weekend to surprise our dear friend Laura. We went to a surprise party that was being thrown for her and we had to meet up with Matt, Rafal, and Danielle. I walked in and I was surprised to see Timmy and Joe sitting there. Oh my goodness... there was food everywhere and considering the food @ Stony Brook sucks major balls, I jumped at the chance of a homemade meal. It was so gooooood. Nachos with extra cheese... tacos... it was Mexican themed. I even saw a colorful mermaid pinata. It was great. So we were waiting for Laura to come home... her sisters had taken her shopping to get her out of the house. We waited and stuff as a car with no headlights on at night comes strolling down the block. We thought that's not Laura... there's no headlights on... she wouldn't be so spaced as to forget... but nevertheless... IT WAS LAURA! I laughed and got ready to yell surprise with the gang. She walked in and we yelled... this girl almost fell over backwards!! So naturally I took a picture of it... heehee We had more tacos, we had cake and then we had the pinata segment... which was disasterous, but fun! The pinata, which we named Dolly (don't ask me why) and I stupidly volunteered to hold it up... oh bad idea. I was so scared that I I almost peed myself... lol (well not really, but I was scared). Laura was blindfolded and took a couple of swings until the cracked it a bit. Then Mel, Laura's lil sis, took a swing... SHE SPLIT DOLLY RIGHT IN HALF!...that girl is strong. Candy flew everywhere. It was great. The after party was next... ::sings Jay-Z:: after the party is the afterparty... after the afterparty it's the hotel lobby... Anyway, we went to Reg's and drank (YAY! Beer pong). We played Beer Pong, which I must say is quite entertaining. Whoever said Girls can't play beer bong was SERIOUSLY mistaken (Noel). Danielle and I kicked major butt against all the boys in the room twice! Oh yeah ::does a victory dance:: So anyway, that went on for most of the night and then we passed out on the couch... everyone had a blanket, but me. Of course my luck is impecable! I was left with a sweatshirt to barely cover the op half of my body. I wasn't cold except when it turned to morning (around 5 to be exact)... but I sucked it up. We woke up and headed back home and now I am waiting to head back to Stony Brook and it's cold weather! bbbbBBBRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrRRRR... WooT! Post Teen Girl Squad FOREVER! For girls between the ages of 20-25! Current Mood: cold Current Music: NIghtJar - "Mandolins" (Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)
Monday, February 2nd, 2004
10:50 pm	Moosapalooza IV So Friday I went to see NightJar and Ace Green in West Islip @ the Moose Lodge. I got on the train and got there and let me tell you it was freeeeezzzzing there. I waited for Jer to come and get me and this weird guy kept looking at me... very strange fellow. Anyway, Jer got there and I was glad to see him and I gave him the remaining par of his X-mas gift. We went to the show and I saw everyone... Dave, Magic, Maya, Jayme, Mario... it was great. Who knew MySpace would be so beneficial. I feel like I belong, it's great. I found out that NightJar was playing fifth and that this guy called Dan Deacon was playing before them. When Dan Deacon came on and played his music I was amazed. Amazed at how a single guy can produce all of that sound. Pizza Horse was my favorite. He's awesome! NightJar played an amazing set, eventhough they were cut short which I wasn't too fond of. Two bands were being assholes about playing and basically NightJar was cut off. Either way they rocked! Went to Maya's afterwards cause she was having a party. I loved it! She is the woman. Jayme was sick so she couldn't stay for long...BUMMER. But I had fun... drank a little... talked a lot and listened to one of Dan Deacon's CDs... SEAHORSES FOREVER! LOL Great Times. I wound up crashing @ Maya's with Jer, Magic, Dave, and Mario. Woke up around 11 am. It was so nice not to have to leave at 1 am to get back to SBU by 4 am. When everyone woke up and got dressed we went to the diner. I had so much fun. Got some food and then we wne tback to Maya's. Everyone left and it was just Jer, Maya, and I. We talked a little... I saw pictures... and Jer showed me THE BADGERS...BADGERS, BADGERS, BADGERS, BADGER... MUSHROOM MUSHROOM... LOL! *^_^* Jer said he would drop me off @ the train station before he had to get home and get ready for work.He dropped me off and we said goodbye and I got back to Stony Brook. That was the best time I have had in a LONG while! I needed it soooooooo bad. Thanx guys. I think I've found my niche... NICE! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Letters to Cleo - "I Want You to Want Me" (Remind Me Not to Act This Way Again)